I am not certain what is it that I truly want for myself in this life. Some questions I have asked myself :

– Do I want to be working in a marketing job till I am 45 years old? And having to manage a routine like that daily; wake up-go to work-spend 8 hrs at work helping a corporation sell something to the masses-leave work for mom’s place-have dinner-leave for home-play with Kyle for an hour-read a book-go to bed

– The big question will be what will I do when I leave the corporate world when I am 45. Find a second career? Obviously my kids will have no time for me.

The weekend drill is slightly different; struggle to get up early at 9am-try to play with Kyle while trying to keep awake-while Kyle naps, spend some time on the net-bring Kyle to class-come home to stone with Keith and watch DVD. Start to feel depress on Sunday evening thinking about having to go to work the next day.

As for the relationship with the hubby, we dont seem to have much time for one another. He is either travelling or I am travelling…the only time we have are the weekends, which is mainly shared with the little one.

Is that all life is about? If life is about making choices for ourselves, am I making the right choice with my life? Somehow I feel that my talents left dormant and passion does not seem to exist in that area where I spend more than 8 hours daily on the weekdays.

I fear to take that step into the unknown, the many ‘what ifs’ just run through mind; what if I fail if I decide to move away from familiarity? What if I just lose total interest and passion again? What then should I do after that?

Maybe I should stop thinking too much and just wait patiently for His confirmation.

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Received the books from Amazon this week and I started on this book Mommy, Teach Me! by author Barbara Curtis, a certified Montessori teacher, Christian and mother of twelve.

The fundamentals of this book is built on the belief that the preschool years are the most valuable for building character and a love of learning. And all mothers are made by God to be able to teach their own children.

Some key strategies that I have learnt from this book that will help release a mother’s teaching ability :

1. Observation
Make purposeful observation when your child is not aware
– What are his favorite activities?
His favorite activities are hitting the ball with his kiddie racket or golf club

– How can they be adapted to create more learning opportunities?
Hmm…have to think about this

– What frustrates him, distracts him and makes him worried?
The TV distracts him, so does grand-dad being around him. Frustrate or worried – no apparent action or thing at this point.

– What produces a look of accomplishment?
When he hears praises like ‘well done’, or when we clap when he does something well

From observing, you will discover your child’s potential and his unique gifts.

2. Understanding
Make the effort to see the world from your child’s eyes

3. Flexibility
Keep an open mind and always be ready for change

4. Confidence
Whatever you do, don’t give up. Just keep moving as there will be small successes everyday, just do it to the best of our ability

Use these strategies with the five potentials of how to release your child’s learning ability :
1. The child’s need for Independence
2. The child’s need for Order
3. Teach the child self control
4. Encourage concentration
5. The child’s potential for service (desire to help)

I am going to make an effort to start on this strategies from tomorrow and make myself a better teacher to Kyle. The only challenge that I face now is the amount of time that I am able to spend with him

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